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I can tell by the way that they look at me Like I make em uncomfortable instantly Everybody else talks easy, naturally Then they talk to me and it gets tense suddenly Short responses, fake smiles, awkward energy Like they wanna leave but they standing next to me So I stopped speaking first, now I barely speak Whole life made me feel like a fuckin anomaly Non-verbal… Don’t ask me what’s wrong Non-verbal… I been quiet too long Non-verbal… Now the silence too personal Life has made me non-verbal I notice little things people think I don’t The way they avoid me or the way their tone changes up People laughing loud till I walk nearby Then it gets weird and nobody can look me in the eyes I sit there thinkin “what the hell is wrong with me?” Why every conversation feel forced constantly? Everybody got somebody they connect with easy Meanwhile I feel outta place in every room I’m in completely And when I bring it up they act like I’m insane Tell me I’m dramatic or imagining things So eventually I stopped trustin my gut Now every thought in my head feels corrupt I overanalyze every pause and reaction Every fake check-in and surface interaction I can tell when somebody don’t wanna talk You hear it in they voice before they even walk off I wasn’t born like this, this came from people Years of gettin treated less than equal Now words get trapped somewhere deep in my chest And silence feels safer than bein misread I can tell by the way that they look at me Like I make em uncomfortable instantly Everybody else talks easy, naturally Then they talk to me and it gets tense suddenly Short responses, fake smiles, awkward energy Like they wanna leave but they standing next to me So I stopped speaking first, now I barely speak Whole life made me feel like a fuckin anomaly Non-verbal… Don’t ask me what’s wrong Non-verbal… I been quiet too long Non-verbal… Now the silence too personal Life has made me non-verbal I watch people connect like it’s automatic Meanwhile every word in my head turns tragic I rehearse conversations before they happen Still end up feelin stupid after every interaction People say “just talk” like it’s simple for me They don’t know what years of rejection can be Every dirty look, every laugh, every rumor Turned me colder, quieter, less human Now I stay inside my head most days Cause out loud I can feel when people pull away Like they tolerate me more than actually care Like they only keep me around cause I’m there And the worst part is I still crave connection Still wanna feel normal for a second But every time I try I leave feelin embarrassed Like somethin about me makes people uncomfortable naturally So now silence became my protection If I don’t speak I can’t feel rejection Can’t get judged for the words I say Can’t get hurt if I stay away I feel like an alien in my skin Everybody connects, I just ruin it No matter how hard I try to act normal I still end up feeling abnormal I can tell by the way that they look at me Like I make em uncomfortable instantly Everybody else talks easy, naturally Then they talk to me and it gets tense suddenly Short responses, fake smiles, awkward energy Like they wanna leave but they standing next to me So I stopped speaking first, now I barely speak Whole life made me feel like a fuckin anomaly Non-verbal… Don’t ask me what’s wrong Non-verbal… I been quiet too long Non-verbal… Now the silence too personal Life has made me non-verbal Non-verbal