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[Intro] (Father...) (uuaahh) I’m looking up, but all I see is gray skies. It's cold out here, Lord. 28 degrees. And I’m just trying to talk to You, 'cause nobody else listens. Why, Lord? [Verse 1] God, why must I suffer so? Put me to the test? I feel like an alien on this planet, never getting rest You’ve kept me alive, and I appreciate the breath I don’t understand the plan yet, but I’m cheating death I keep taking L’s, stacking losses to the ceiling I don’t think I can take another one, I’m losing all the feeling This dude on the screen tells me to go and "touch grass" I’ll be sleeping in it soon enough, G, so watch the judgment pass People really don’t understand what it’s really like to fear Not that anxiety they tweet about—I mean the end is near Real fear, heart-in-your-throat, nowhere to go type of dread Only the real ones know the noise inside a hunted head They mock me for the struggle, kick me when I'm on the floor Lord, why you let the devil knock so loudly at my door? [Chorus] Lord, tell me why, oh why? Am I here just to cry? I’m surviving, but I’m barely getting by. God, I know You got me still. But this jagged little pill Is getting hard to swallow against my will. Why must I suffer so? [Verse 2] I was ready to do life, Lord, crash out over pride Because of his dumbass, I almost let the demon drive Honestly, I’m not a gangster, I never claimed the street But I had to do things to survive just so we could eat Things normal people can’t grasp, things that haunt the sleep Working two jobs, plus the hustle, digging in too deep Just to lose everything? After all the sweat and bone? And now I’m standing in the wreckage, freezing all alone I’m mostly kind and soft, Lord, You know my inner heart But this cruel world rips the gentle pieces all apart We just people, man, most criminals no different than you We just have harder lives, walking without a shoe I was so mad at You, thinking injustice is my curse But I look back at my timeline, and it could be getting worse I’m capable of immense cruelty, the violence in my reach But Your hand is on my shoulder, so I practice what I preach. [Chorus] Lord, tell me why, oh why? Am I here just to cry? I’m surviving, but I’m barely getting by. God, I know You got me still. But this jagged little pill Is getting hard to swallow against my will. Why must I suffer so? [Verse 3] I know who I am, God, despite what they say I’m not gonna do life for a troll who wants to play I’mma do life for who matters, even if they hate Even if they slander my name and lie upon my slate He said "go outside," idiot, it's 28 degrees It’s winter in the city, the wind brings you to your knees You couldn't walk two seconds in the path that I tread You’d break under the pressure, you’d wish that you were dead I gotta act this way, you fool, it's armor for the soul It's the only thing keeping me from losing all control I wish I was home with family, sitting by the fire But I’m out here surviving, climbing through the wire You’re wrong about me, Satan, trying to cloud the view You’re just a distraction from what I’m supposed to do. [Chorus] Lord, tell me why, oh why? Am I here just to cry? I’m surviving, but I’m barely getting by. God, I know You got me still. But this jagged little pill Is getting hard to swallow against my will. Why must I suffer so? So I will continue to spread the love. Even when I wanna spread the pain. Try not to be my worst self, even when the cold hurts. I know You got me, God. By all stats, I should already be dead. But You come and save me when the cliff is right there. I’m still breathing. And at the end of the day... that has to be enough. But this dude? He's the devil trying to distract me. Help me focus, Lord. Just help me focus.