Lyrics
[Intro: 140 BPM, acoustic guitar motif alone, then electric guitar power chords, 808 and hi-hat rolls, siren rise, warm and driving] [Verse 1: rapid-fire gritty male rap, palm-muted chugs, 808 pulse, bright acoustic strums] Saw your face on a wanted poster first result when I searched your name Never thought I'd see my bro's eyes staring back under bold letters, his government name Are you into the wild did you go full McCandless Were you searching yearning to drain the pain Pain that had no refrain Trying to crawl out these trenches while you vanish in the fucking rain [record scratch, electric guitar answers the vocal] Bitches are bitches they only sometimes get stitches Brought me a son but lost my mistress what's worse as I lost my twin Reconciliation set in but still there was darkness deep within Both lost our mind both trying to find it You went into the wild I stay against the system grinding [acoustic guitar fill, beat thins] Same side of the fence but different roads were lent You took yours and went yeah you took yours and went [Instrumental Break: 4 bars, electric guitar and acoustic guitar trade phrases, siren, drums driving Chorus: full band, doubled vocal, chanted hook, warm lifted guitars, big 808s] Why I'm still here when you couldn't stay? Brother in the wind, I'm here counting days (counting days) Two sides, same pain, we just broke apart You're lost in the wild, I got a broken heart (broken heart) [hats roll, electric guitar chugs] Where you at? Where you go? Do you even know? I'm carrying us both through the rain and snow (rain and snow) Why I'm still breathing when you disappeared? Survivor's guilt is the pain that I hold near [Instrumental Break: 4 bars, acoustic guitar fingerpicked solo, soft 808 Bridge: spoken, intimate, acoustic guitar and light sub-bass, warm] Emotions now flow through me like water Through my words and through my pain feel like a fucking martyr Every bar I lay every song I write to you [electric guitar swell] I hope you ain't a ghost I hope you made it through these nights We were built the same just broke in different ways You went into the darkness I'm still counting days [Instrumental Break: 8 bars, electric guitar solo, acoustic strums, scratches Freestyle Verse: fast, intense, shouted emphasis, drums hard, chugging guitars] I carry both of us now, the ghost and the living cost The one who went missing and the one who's forever lost In guilt that never ceases, pieces of my conscience Searching through the wilderness for any sign of your progress Lost process, raw stress, God bless wherever you rest Confess I second-guess if I coulda done my best To keep you here grounded, surrounded by the love Instead you went above, below, into the unknown [beat drops to kick and acoustic guitar] Overgrown with regret, every breath a reminder set That I'm still here breathing while you're out there somewhere fed To the wild, to the night, to whatever took your sight From the life we coulda lived, now I'm giving all I got left Every step I take forward feels like moving farther from you Every win I claim feels hollow when I can't report it to you [full band slams back in] So I pour it in these verses, curses turned to blessings cursed With the burden that I'm here, disappear into the words [Instrumental Break: 4 bars, both guitars play the hook in harmony, sirens Chorus: biggest lift, stacked ad-libs, bright guitars, hard 808] Why I'm still here when you couldn't stay? Brother in the wind, I'm here counting days (counting days) Two sides, same pain, we just broke apart You're lost in the wild, I got a broken heart (broken heart) Where you at? Where you go? Do you even know? I'm carrying us both through the rain and snow (rain and snow) Why I'm still breathing when you disappeared? Survivor's guilt is the pain that I hold near [Outro: bridge repeat, near-spoken, acoustic guitar leads, electric guitar fades, slowing warm glow] Emotions now flow through me like water Through my words and through my pain feel like a fucking martyr Every bar I lay every song I write to you I hope you ain't a ghost I hope you made it through these nights We were built the same just broke in different ways You went into the darkness I'm still counting days [Outro: acoustic guitar rings out, 808 fades] [End]