Lyrics
[Verse 1] I wake up in this bed but the sheets still smell like you I keep waiting for your breathing, but there’s nothing coming through The rooms feel too quiet, like the walls are holding their breath And I’m still here pretending that I haven’t lost myself [Pre-Chorus] I was strong, I was steady, I was good at holding on Now I’m buried in the silence, and I don’t know where I’ve gone [Chorus] These are the ashes of my life, everything I used to be Everything I thought was certain, everything that belonged to me I’m still standing in the wreckage, I’m still breathing through the smoke Something in me hasn’t died yet… but I’m scared it’s getting close [Verse 2] Some days I don’t feel anything, some nights I feel it all I keep reaching for a version of myself that doesn’t answer when I call I walk through the same places, but they don’t feel like they’re mine And I wonder if I’ll ever stop feeling like I’m running out of time [Pre-Chorus] I was sharp, I was focused, I was built to take the hit Now I’m standing in the ruins, trying not to quit [Chorus] These are the ashes of my life, everything I used to be Everything I thought was certain, everything that belonged to me I’m still standing in the wreckage, I’m still breathing through the smoke Something in me hasn’t died yet… but I’m scared it’s getting close [Verse 3] I don’t know how long this darkness plans on staying in my chest I don’t know if I’ll ever feel like I can finally rest But I know the part of me that fought through every storm before Is still somewhere in the embers, even if it’s quiet, even if it’s sore [Bridge] I lost the life I knew, I lost the shape of what I planned I lost the hand I held, I lost the ground I used to stand But I haven’t lost the fire that made me who I am Even buried in the ashes, even when I cannot see it in my hands I’m not asking for the old life, I’m not asking for the past I’m just asking for the strength to keep fighting through the ash [Final Chorus] These are the ashes of my life, everything I used to be Everything I thought was certain, everything that belonged to me I’m still standing in the wreckage, I’m still breathing through the smoke Something in me hasn’t died yet… and I’m not ready to let it go I’m not ready to let it go [Outro] Ashes of my life… Still here in the ashes… I’m not done yet. I’m not done yet.