Let Me Have My Silly Songs

[VERSE 1] It's two A.M. again, my mind won't let me rest, running old memories like they're still some kind of test. They say "go back" like it's sunshine and backyard swings, yeah but my "good old days" were a different kind of thing. I don't miss it, I survived it, that's my honest truth, and I don't owe nostalgia to a pain that broke my youth. [PRE-CHORUS] So if I get quiet… if I slip away… It's not that I don't care- I’m just out here writing my way through today. [CHORUS] So let me have my silly songs, let me laugh a little loud, let me breathe out all this weight and exhale into the ground. I'm not running from the real world- I'm just trying not to drown. So if I step out for a minute... don't follow me down. [VERSE 2] I wish it was just one moment, instead of year after year, one thing after another, living a near constant fear. It builds up like a storm front, thunder in my thoughts- so forgive me if I'm careful with what peace I haven't lost. You don't need to understand, I just need to breathe before I drown in what I carry underneath. [PRE-CHORUS] I can love the people... and still draw a line... I can stay kind... and still protect my mind. [CHORUS] So let me have my silly songs, let me laugh a little loud, let me breathe out all this weight and exhale into the ground. I'm not running from the real world- I'm just trying not to drown. So if I step out for a minute... don't follow me down. [BRIDGE] Don't ask me to go back- some doors don't lead to home. I had to learn survival before I learned to grow. So I'm keepin' my laughter, I'm keepin' my light- I've fought too hard to be here to lose myself tonight. [FINAL CHORUS] So let me have my silly songs, let me find a little light, let me be the kind of healed that still needs breaks sometimes. 'Cause it's not one wave, it's the ocean coming down. So if I step out for a minute... don't follow me down. [OUTRO] Yeah, if I step out for a minute... I'll come back around.