Still Here, Not Alright

[Verse 1] Some days I wake up already tired like I ran all night just to stay I know this face, I’ve learned the details but it doesn’t answer when I say my name I don’t think I look worse than before just different in a way I can’t explain like someone moved the furniture and called it home the same Even if I smile that doesn’t make me happy even if I hold you that doesn’t mean I’m close [Pre-Chorus] They say time fixes everything but time just moves the light some things heal quieter than that some things need more nights No typing just sitting with it letting it pass [Chorus] I’m still here even if I don’t feel like me still breathing but that doesn’t mean I’m living I just wanna cry ’cause sad is beautiful but it doesn’t mean I’m alright I don’t hate the mirror I just don’t stay too long I’m still here trying to belong [Verse 2] I remember how I used to stand how my face held certain thoughts now I catch myself adjusting like I’m someone I forgot They say “you’re fine, you’re doing great” and maybe that’s not wrong but fine is not the same as whole and great still feels far off Even if I laugh that doesn’t mean I’m havin’ fun even if I talk that doesn’t mean I’m listenin’ Even if I trust you yeah that doesn’t mean I trust you [Bridge] I like a slow, painful movie lights off, everyone movin’ TV glow in a quiet room bath still warm, nothin’ to do I fall I fall apart so easy If this is who I am becoming I hope I learn it slow [Final Chorus] I’m still here even when it feels unclear still breathing still dragging through the day I just wanna cry ’cause sad is beautiful but it doesn’t mean that I’m okay I don’t need to recognize myself every single day I’m still here That counts in its own way