all that i love (i have lost)

I used to love snow It was so magical (mmm) How I'd walk three feet out of the house Throw out my arms and let go I used to love the rain The splashy happy sounds we'd make Jumping in puddles Cupping my hands for a free drink I used to love sunshine The way it always seemed too bright Warming my body Warping the air all around me But that time Well, I guess it's just that time I used to love being alive When simple pleasures were a state of mind When the work could be left behind And the time was mine All mine I used to dread that happiness would end I used to wake up in a cold sweat Somehow amidst my worry I missed when this became my reality (ahhh) I don't know how to pretend I don't know how to pretend That things were better then Or that they'll ever be good again