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Subtitles readyI opened up the blinds today Not all the way Just enough Coffee went cold by the bed again Phone face down like it knew too much Same old hoodie, same ceiling fan Same four walls I forgot how to trust I washed my face in the bathroom sink Stared back like I was someone else No big moment, no movie scene Just me asking myself for help One hand on the curtain cord One foot back on the floor I was not brave I was just tired of losing more I don’t call it healing I call it coming back I opened up the blinds today Let the room know I was still here I’m not fixed, I’m not fearless I still flinch when morning lands I don’t call it healing But I think I’m coming back Coming back Coming back Not all at once But I’m coming back I answered one message yesterday Only said, I’m still around Sent it before I disappeared Before my head could talk me down There’s dust in the window light There are dishes by the sink But I stood there long enough To hear the room start breathing One hand on the curtain cord One foot back on the floor I was not brave I was just tired of losing more I don’t call it healing I call it coming back I opened up the blinds today Let the room know I was still here I’m not fixed, I’m not fearless I still flinch when morning lands I don’t call it healing But I think I’m coming back Maybe I don’t have to bloom Maybe I just have to stay Maybe coming back to life Is smaller than they say No one clapped, the room stayed quiet No one saw me choose But I stood there in the daylight And I did not move I don’t call it healing I call it coming back I opened up the blinds today Let the room know I was still here I’m not whole, I’m not new But I’m still here with open hands I don’t call it healing Now I know I’m coming back I opened up the blinds today Not all the way Just enough I don’t call it healing yet But I showed up