Rage & Empty

I’m so goddamn tired… I watched that monster slowly take you away Day after day, it stole your light, it dimmed your flame You fought like hell while I held your hand Now I’m screaming at shadows in this empty bed I can’t stand They said “she’s in a better place”, what a fucking lie ‘Cause my whole world went with you when you died I smile for the people, but inside I’m breaking This rage in my chest is the only thing I’m not faking God damn this cancer, God damn this pain It took the love of my life and left me here insane I’m so full of anger I can barely see How am I supposed to breathe when you’re not here with me? I’m raging… I’m raging… But all I have left is this empty I punch the steering wheel when I drive past our spot Yell at the sky like it’s somehow your fault it’s not I know it’s wrong, but I’m so fucking mad That you had to suffer and I couldn’t stop it, not even a little bit Everyone says “you’ll heal in time” But they don’t know what it’s like to lose your reason to shine I’m one bad moment from losing my mind ‘Cause living without you feels like a crime God damn this cancer, God damn this pain It took the love of my life and left me here insane I’m so full of anger I can barely see How am I supposed to breathe when you’re not here with me? I’m raging… I’m raging… But all I have left is this empty I know you’d hate to see me like this You’d tell me to keep going, to find some kind of peace But right now I just want to burn it all down ‘Cause this world feels so wrong without you around God damn this cancer… I hate what it took I hate every morning I wake up without you I’m broken and angry and I don’t know what to do But I’m still here screaming… screaming for you I’m raging… I’m raging… Without you I miss you so much it hurts… And I’m still so fucking mad…