Lyrics
[Verse 1] I been talking to the mirror like it owes me rent Eyes all red, but I still went where the old me went Pockets full of crumpled notes and a dead phone glow Mama said, "Baby, slow down," but I don't know how to go I bite my tongue till it tastes like pennies and rage Then I smile at the door like I'm safe on the page Whole room spinning when the fan cuts through the air I keep stacking up my shame like it needs a chair If I call, don't answer fast, I might say too much Might dump every broken piece just to feel your touch Got a black mark in my chest where the trust used to live Now I give and I give and I give what I can't give Yeah, I know I look calm, but the calm is a trick One more push and I swear I could split my teeth on the brick [Chorus] Hold me down tonight I’m slipping fast again Keep my name in sight Before I crack in half Hold me down tonight I’m too far gone again If I shake, don't flinch Just stay right there [Verse 2] I been burning through my messages, deleting the proof Every word that I send comes out sharp and untruth Got my hoodie on my head like a curtain in a storm Try to act like I'm okay, but that version got worn I seen my own worst habits sitting shotgun with me Feet tapped out of sync, heart beat mean and messy I don't want another speech, I don't want a clean line I want one real hand on my wrist in the bad times Cause I can feel the walls lean when the silence gets loud And my name turns to smoke in the middle of the crowd If I laugh, it's a glitch, if I talk, it's a spill I been balancing on blame like a bottle on a sill Tell the truth, I ain't fine, I been cut by the glare And I'm one bad night from not being there [Chorus] Hold me down tonight I’m slipping fast again Keep my name in sight Before I crack in half Hold me down tonight I’m too far gone again If I shake, don't flinch Just stay right there [Bridge] If I fall through the floor Don't make a scene Just pull me back To something clean I don't need a sermon I need a hand I need a pulse I can understand [Chorus] Hold me down tonight I’m slipping fast again Keep my name in sight Before I crack in half Hold me down tonight I’m too far gone again If I shake, don't flinch Just stay right there