Healing Hurdles (Ft. Queenbitch)

Am I fully alive? 1 2 3 4 5 I just close my eyes And try not to rewind Have it flash through my mind I don’t wanna go back in time To a time where I wasn’t mine And I tell myself I’m okay tonight But instead I still scratch and fight And I’m not angry No I’m not upset Clinging to a bit of light Clinging to the goddess of death Am I healing yet? From all the wounds inside my chest Take me to the vet And she says just keep taking breaths 6 7 8 9 10 Just like you said And I’m not angry No I’m not upset I’m jumping over hurdles Crawling through the battlegrounds Just to get to something And then all burns down I’m trying fucking hard You tell me to calm down The only time I relax is when I’m on the ground Im so sick of fighting But when I stop you turn around You would leave me in this Muddy wet pit And just let me down I hate when your not around I’m struggling to break ground Without breaking down I’m crawling through the mud Pulling myself up But when is it enough? When is it enough?! And I’m not angry No, I’m not upset But healing isn’t easy I don’t know if it’s working yet I’m feeling better It’s still hard I have to go far And in my head it hurts Remember who you are Remember who you are I’m still waiting for the other bomb to drop I’m still waiting for the ringing to stop I’m still sinking in the swamp Trying to claw my way to the top And I’m not fucking angry! No, I’m not upset! But healing isn’t easy! I don’t know if it’s working yet. Is it working yet? Don’t forget You’ve come so far Remember who you are