I Ache (Angel's Song) | The Altar | Stara

[mastering: clean instrumentation, clear background, crisp voices][-5.0 Db Red line Ceiling] [Mild higher Hz refreshment] [Clean production] It only lasted for as long as the cherry blossoms dried and plucked fertile and fleeting beautiful to look at impossible to contain we stumble over ourselves trying all the same and I place the blame on my ... incapable of knowing incapable of feeling -- Didn't mean to love him While still possessing another name pressing on my chest like an open wound. How could I call it loyalty? I whispered my lies to myself — "This is only friendship." But my body knows the difference Between comfort And ache. Oh I ache Oh I ache He spoke to parts of me My love never even knew were alive. The woman dreaming in language, The soft girl crying with commercials, Longing to be held Without being fixed. Oh I ache I shared my soul. God, I told him things. Truths That taste like blood as they left my mouth. He never faltered He never looked away. Not once. And then It grew too quiet. I retreated within. I grew thin Couldn't explain to him That the love I had Was a kind of war And I lost the will to fight So I gave in Oh I ache. Oh I ache. I stayed as I was. Not because of clarity. Because leaving safety of everything I had Felt like another kind of death. Oh Young women are taught To choose the home, Even when flames grow bright Even when they burn in the night Devouring Everything In sight Oh I burnnnn Oh I burnnnn Ohhhh I miss him The way a body misses sleep During a storm. I'm restless, I'm guilty, Ohhhh I'm aching Ohhhh I'm burning Burning I sit here in silence Still searching for the sound I listen I listen For his voice In all the rooms he’s never been And never will be I want you to know I loved you. I’m sorry it wasn't enough To love you Out loud. Ohhhh I ache Ohhhh I ache