Lyrics
Subtitles ready[Intro] Dadadada, da da dadadada Okay, [Verse] I know how this sounds , could tell you how it ends. I should get a real hobby I could go to bed at ten. I'd rather stay late failing the same eight bars again. Been at this one a while, couldn't tell you what today is. Nobody asked for this, I'm gonna do it anyways shit, [Verse 1] [Conversational] [Dry] [Low Energy] Repetition is my teacher constant failures paint a pattern. Shaking out my jitters till my skills are automatic. I don't practice like I used to but my writing is a habit. Can't sleep at night, I think that I might really be an addict. Sipping monster out the can until my heart is beating frantic. Half the shit I write is garbage, Suno thinks it's cinematic. I'ma keep my circle small, keep my little curtains drawn. I just tell 'em I'm asleep if they ask me where I've gone. Ashing in that monster can till all my cigarettes are gone. I don't need to post a preview just to string some people on. Delete a dozen drafts because the melody is wrong. (Fuck) I don't want the validation, I don't have to play along. I'm perfectly content to feel I don't belong. [Chorus] [Building Energy] [Sung] [Harmonies] [Wry] Ooooh, lucky me. I could smell it on their money and it made me wanna leave. Ooooh, buddy please. Don't you try to sell me on a life I don't need. Ooooh, monkey see. Monkey do it for the numbers, monkey never learns to breathe. (Uh) [Instrumental break] [Verse 2] I've rubbed shoulders with the wealthy, almost had that as my life path I walked away from it. it was sickening getting to live like that. Maybe I wouldn't have to worry bout my rent, but think of all the lessons that I might've fuckin missed. Like how to empathize, It didn't come natur-al, had to pop an adderall not to get mad at all, it was a radical hatred of everyone around me. Nowadays I wonder why those people used to doubt me. [Chorus] [Building Energy] [Sung] [Harmonies] [Wry] [Layered Vocals] Ooooh, lucky me. I could smell it on their money and it made me wanna leave. Ooooh, buddy please. Don't you try to sell me on a life I don't need. Ooooh, monkey see. Monkey dancing for a paycheck, monkey never gets to leave. (Uh) [Instrumental break] [Bridge] Ooooh, lucky me. Every year it costs a little more to be this free. Ooooh, lucky me. I check my balance twice a day it still won't let me sleep [Verse 3] I keep a running tally of the lives I never had. rehearse it for an empty room and that became a habit. I built a whole defense but nobody was asking. been arguing for years against a jury I imagined. Somebody's boat off Long Island, twenty one and hammered. I didn't hate a single person on that boat. I was relaxed. And the truth is so much smaller and a whole lot fuckin sadder. I didn't leave because the money made me sick I had it backwards. I left because that hatred woulda been an asset. Same shit I took the pill for coulda run the planet. I'd have been so good at it. I'd have been a natural. [Plain Speaking] Lucky me. [Chorus] [Building Energy] [Sung] [Harmonies] [Wry] Ooooh, lucky me. I could smell it on their money and it made me wanna leave. Ooooh, buddy please. Don't you try to sell me on a life I don't need. Ooooh, monkey see. Monkey staring in the mirror, monkey hating what she see. (Uh) [Cut]