𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓛𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽𝓮𝓻

[verse] it's past midnight and i made it home where have i been? i don't really know i'm in no mood for calls so i turn off my phone [pre-hook] and i feel it rising in my chest the pound in my head my body is so heavy it gave up on my legs i reach for the thing around my wrist and i snap it as hard as i can but it rips in the middle of the pull damned rubberband [hook] i fight the urge to pull up my sleeves empty the drawer in search of the lighter i'm obsessed with the marks it leaves i'm unstable mentally i don't do it for spite it's out of necessity and i tried and i tried and i tried but i can't get rid of the lighter [verse] try to hide the burn marks pulling down my sleeves while my mother's eyes made it past my skin it's unhealthy my anxiety reached new peaks and it's getting hard to breathe [pre-hook] and i feel it rising in my chest the pound in my head my body is so heavy it gave up on my legs i reach for the thing around my wrist and i snap it as hard as i can but it rips in the middle of the pull damned rubberband [hook] i fight the urge to pull up my sleeves empty the drawer in search of the lighter i'm obsessed with the marks it leaves i'm unstable mentally i don't do it for spite it's out of necessity and i tried and i tried and i tried but i can't get rid of the lighter [verse] they found my diary "get her as soon as possible to therapy" and it's getting fuzzy in my head false alarm – out of control [bridge] i try to snap the broken rubberband anyway my last attempt fighting the urge to set it all on fire on fire [final hook] i fight the urge to pull up my sleeves empty the drawer in search of the lighter i'm obsessed with the marks it leaves i'm unstable mentally i don't do it for spite it's out of necessity and i tried and i tried and i tried (long exhale, room noise, then silence)