Not Anti-Social

[Verse 1] When I was young, I always said hi to strangers Always bright and friendly, never cared of dangers My parents always said that I smiled so bright Everyone who met me said I was such a delight Now that I'm older, I'm stuck here asking why Was it my kindness that attracted their lies? The world taught me quickly that not everyone’s kind So I built these walls just to protect my mind [Chorus] I’m not anti-social, just socially awkward Crowds get too loud and I swallow my words I’d rather be home with my cats by my side Than pretend I’m fine in the world outside [Verse 2] People always asking me to go do this or that Telling me I can’t just stay home with my cats They say “be more social, try to wear a smile” Try to pretend that I’m normal, just for a while Every invitation feels like a test I’ll fail Small talk and parties make me feel so frail I nod and I smile but I’m counting down the time ‘Til I can slip away and make the quiet mine [Chorus] I’m not anti-social, just socially awkward Crowds get too loud and I swallow my words I’d rather be home with my cats by my side Than pretend I’m fine in the world outside [Verse 3] Society is littered with so many labels Trying to avoid them all has me unstable Introvert, shy, awkward, “you’re too quiet” they say “Why do you hide in the back of the crowd all day?” I’m tired of the boxes they keep trying to fit The pressure to conform, the constant bullshit I don’t need a diagnosis or a brand new name I just want to exist without feeling ashamed [Bridge] I’m not broken, I’m just built this way Need my quiet just to get through the day No need to fix me, I like my own space Let me be in my own little place [Chorus] I’m not anti-social, just socially awkward Crowds get too loud and I swallow my words I’d rather be home with my cats by my side Than pretend I’m fine in the world outside [Outro] I’d rather be home with my cats by my side Than pretend I’m fine in the world outside